So this is a shocker. More than one entry in a week? And within 24 hours of each other? It's AMAZING!
ha. ha. ha. Don't trip over the sarcasm, there's buckets of it everywhere.

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Ok, so I started this blog to get away from myself. Does that make sense? Let me start over.
I have a diary on another site that I've kept for over 3 years now. It has everything in it that I went through with my first real boyfriend. What happened after he left anyway. He moved away and I started making bad decisions. Sometimes I think he was what kept me sane. I mean, I love my friends, and I would be lost without them, but it was when he left that things went to hell. I made mistake after mistake. I wish I could just erase that time in my life. I don't know who I was then, but it sure as hell wasn't me. Things in my family were at a rough point at the time - my parents got a divorce, my mom moved back to her hometown 6 hours from where we were at the time, my dad dated psycho woman numbers 1 and 2 in the course of 2 years. We even had a house fire that started in the room I was in at the time. It was crazy, but I survived. Since home wasn't a place I really wanted to be most of the time, I spent every moment I could with my friends. My boyfriend and I didn't talk much so we pretty much split up. I had a new guy for a few months my senior year, I had sex for the first time, and I wish I could take it back. That was the starting point of everything. I broke up with him, got a new job working with some awesome people and hung out with a couple other guys there. Which I shouldn't have. I had sex with a guy known for playing girls that I liked but didn't really care about... I rounded the number up to 3 guys one night when I was drinking with some friends... Just more mistakes I wish I could forget. Thinking about it gives me this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach... It makes me so mad that I did all those things I want to cry or scream or hit something sometimes... I don't know what was wrong with me!

I don't know why, but lately, I just haven't been much of a computer person. Now, this is strange for me, because I used to be the one up all night playing games or chatting to friends or just writing. I hardly even check my email anymore. I don't know what's happened. It's not like I have a life or anything, I was online more when I was around my friends all the time. Hell, I would be with Nichole all day, then go home and talk to her online for hours. We're dorky that way. Now a week will go by when I don't talk to my friends! It's weird. When I was right there within 5 minutes of all my friends I was always talking to them, hanging out, going places. Now that I'm away from them, you'd think I'd at least talk to them all the time. People think long-distance romance is a problem, well so is long-distance best friends!! I just wish I could go visit them. I mean, Val even moved closer (albeit still 8 hours away) but if I had money I could easily make a weekend of visiting her. But of course, I barely have enough money to keep the gas tank on my car full to get to classes and back.
I'm sorry. I complain to much. Well, I do since I've moved anyway.

Why hello again! Yes, it's been quite awhile since I've been around here, but hey, life gets busy sometimes. Eh.

Soooo... School's ok: getting 2 B's and an A. The B's are thisclose to being A's. It's shocking. Yes. I know. I have to register for next quarter's classes in a couple of weeks - which means I only have that much time left in THIS quarter. Woot! Also have to register for classes for the summer at GSU soon, and apply for housing as well ('cause living on the sidewalk while taking classes isn't a good idea). Anyhoo.

My birthday is coming up. Did I mention that? Yup, it's March 5th, for those who have money and love me and want to send prezzies :) I'll be 22. Wow. I feel old. Last time I checked, I was 17. Yeesh. I just don't feel 21, let alone 22. I don't know what it is. I mean, Sure I can legally drink and I'm heading back to a university known for it's parties, but it doesn't mean I drink and go out all the time. I don't know... Maybe I'm just weird. Maybe it's because I'm behind so much in school. I mean, I didn't really head to college until 2003, so I turned 21 in my second semester! Even if I take all the classes I can without failing, for every semester possible, my younger brother (who just turned 20!) will finish college WAY before me! It just isn't fair. He's the smart one, he's the editor of his school's literary magazine (he goes to Ole Miss!) and he's like a genius when it comes to writing stories and poetry. Bah. Oh well, he's doing his thing and I'm doing mine. I'm just not a school kind of person.

Anyway, enough about school. Ick. So my little sis, Chrissy, and I have begun to get our asses in shape. haha Found this awesome ab workout in one of my magazines and decided to try it out yesterday and WOW it hurts, but it should work. After the first 2 weeks of doing it, we should start to see something happening, so if we do, we're planning to keep it up until Daddy gets back in May (or until I leave for school, whichever comes first) and if we like it, we'll stick with it. On top of that, we've decided to drink more water, less soda, and get more calcium into our bodies somehow or another (we don't really get enough). So every day it's ab workout, then a bit of free weights for our arms, and some cardio or another. Bike riding, running on the treadmill, jumping around to music, whatever. We think we can get through it. And *crosses fingers* hopefully we'll see SOMETHING happening in 2-3 weeks.

Allo. I haven't been on the internet in a long time, so updating this was far from my mind. I'll try to do better next time. *smirk*

Ack! It's the final week of classes, and I have my Math final on Thursday. I AM SO SCREWED! I still have to go by the math tutor tomorrow evening after english class (the final for which I took on Monday, thank goodness), assuming Mrs. Wilcox will let me leave early to even get to the tutor before it's too late. Anywho, I have to go to the tutor to get help correcting my tests so I can get better than a 32 and 67 on the horrid ones, so I can actually pass the class. On top of that, I have to make sure I understand everything in Chapters 4, 7, 8, 10, and 11 by Thursday, because the final test is cumulative. Ugh. For some reason, when I took the tests, I understood everything and thought I was doing it all correctly, meanwhile, I got bad grades on said tests b/c I apparently am an idiot and was doing everything wrong. OY!!! I hate math. Did I mention that a million times yet? I really need to pass this class. I can afford to take it over. At least I know I'll get an A (most likely) in Computers, and at least a passing grade (hoping for a B) in English. If I could just pass Math, I'd be jumping for joy.
*breathe*
So now I have a month off of school after Thursday's Math and Computer finals. Yay! I get to visit my mom and grandparents for a week (Dec 26-Jan 4). Now I jsut have to get everyone's Christmas and birthday presents bought and I can relax. I decided to give Frank the movie I bought for him, for his b-day (he just turned 14) instead of Christmas, so now I have to find something else to get him. As well as finding a cheap b-day present for Nick, who turns 7 a week from Thursday. I still need to buy Daddy his Big & Rich cd for Christmas (don't have to worry about his b-day until next month), need to see how much that book is for Susan, and figure out what to get Ry and Mommy. Let's see... $25 Dec 1 will get me at least 2 presents. And probably Nick's b-day present, since Yu-Gi-Oh cards don't cost much.  Then the $25 on Dec 15 will get me another 2, and if need be, Ry will help me get something for Mommy. Or, just wait until Jan 1 and get her something then, since Ill be there anyway. And Chrissy's 12th b-day is Jan 13, so need to get her something with the $25 from Jan 1.... I saw a karaoke machine for $20 at Wal-Mart. She's been wanting one.
I think I can make this work. Then, when I get back from SA in Jan, I can start looking for a job since school doesn't start back up until Jan 10. Hopefully someone will be desperate. Bleh.